Just a little one...

Just thought I would write a short post as it has been a few days now.

I had a really nice weekend with family and friends. It has been a while since I felt confident enough to see friends, even though I knew they would be understanding if I told them what had been going on. But it's not something you bring up in conversation over drinks. And I am quite private about who I do and don't tell. I suppose I am scared about how people will react and still feel like they will think I am a failure and have brought this on myself. It is so nice that so far, the people I have told are really understanding and supportive. More so than I could have hoped for.

I went back to my home city and it was really nice to to relax with my brothers and have nice food made for me for a change! My brother made lovely home made lasagne, and although I am not a pasta lover, this was gorgeous.

My partner and I were also treated to lunch with his Mum and Dad at TGI Friday. It was my first time there, so I have broken my TGIF virginity! And I was surprised at how nice it was... and how very american!!

It is sometimes really hard after having a weekend surrounded by people you love, on Monday morning it feels like a massive come down. In fact it felt like that on the train home, even though I was with my partner... and even though he is so supportive and loving, sometimes I can't help but feel alone. This has been made worse by the fact I am not feeling very well, and the weather here today is a bit miserable.

It is really lonely when my partner goes to work on Monday morning...  but today I am going to force myself to brave the cold and buy ingredients for spicy parsnip and apple soup. I made this for the first time last weekend, and it was so comforting. I am hoping it will also help the sore throat! I will post a picture and recipe once I have made it later. And... at some point this week I promise to post the bagel recipe!!!

Take care and lots of love xxx